I have a unique understanding of death from a long time ago, I can feel very clearly how close death is to us, and I am more afraid of it than the people around me.
I have never imagined what will happen after my death, such as organ donation, cremation, etc. I am more concerned with the way I die and how painful it will be when I die, so I don't have many philosophical thoughts about 'death' and extended thinking.
The reason I feel this way is probably because there are too many people around me who are sick or dying, and there is a demographic collapse in our society nowadays, with more and more elderly people appearing and fewer and fewer newborns. The rapidly evolving society is washing away one group of people after another, Updates in medical equipment, updates in the medical system, updates in medications, updates in diseases, updates that we hear about all the time when we are very young, but they don't seem to stop the people around